We occasionally sing this song in church about how the Lord is jealous for us. Honestly, it’s not one of my favorites – even though I don’t have a good reason for it not to be – just that it isn’t. Yet, it still gets stuck in my head every now and then. Like today. I’m getting ready to go to church, singing this song, and it occurs to me….
I know it’s easy to say what I would or would not stand for in a relationship, being as I am single and all, but I do know that I don’t want to be with someone who invokes a sense of jealousy. I guess maybe it’s because I view jealousy as a sign that one is not confident in where they stand in a relationship – either because they are lacking self esteem or because they do not feel assured of the place they hold in their partner’s life. I do not lack in self esteem, so if I felt jealous over someone it would be because I did not feel assured of my role in their life. This would not do well for me. Period.
Yet, the Bible does talk about God being a jealous God. That He does long for our affection. And y’all that thought made me feel a little broken this morning. Maybe a little convicted.
I want my eyes to be so firmly transfixed on Him, that there is never a doubt where my affection lies. This life can be busy. Oftentimes I’m not turning away based on some great transgression I’m trying to hide – rather that I am distracted. I run from one place to the next, knowing I am secure in His love for me, but not being intentional in consistently carving out time in my life to sit and just really meditate on His word. I take His love for granted. If this was an earthly relationship, and I was on that end, I can 100% tell you that it would not work for me. It would not work for me to lie down at night having only been spared a few passing words, but not any depth, over a period of time. I would long for that connection. I would worry over it.
As I stood there singing this morning, going through my routine, I said a prayer – one that I want to remember. One in which I reminded myself Who I belong to, and where my affection lies. Just like we have to be intentional with those we love, I have to be intentional in my time with Him.
Thank you, Lord, for that reminder.
This is a beautiful life.
restlesslycontent 